So here it goes.
I’ve never not fit in before, so you can imagine how awful this is for me. Everyone here is so out of my comfort zone and no matter what I do I feel like the odd one out. I am so uncomfortable everyday and I’m being judged with everything I do. This is so weird, and makes me sorry for everyone I ever judged.
I miss my friends, my life. I miss having fun, going out for a good night, movies and chocolate, BOY- gosh I miss my boys (gay and straight!) I miss them all. I miss my best friends. I miss laughing uncontrollably.
I wish people are here were like that. I feel like everyone is too cool for school type of attitude and I’m just the only dork in Clemson, sitting here. I am never changing who I am.. even if it means these two years will be a little rough. Hopefully people will come around.
And she looks at you sing like:
You’re just into it:
And she joins in and y’all are like:
Jesus take the wheel.
Take it from my hand, cuz I can’t do this on my own; I’m letting go. Give me one more chance, save me from this road I’m on. Jesus take the wheel.
Was the best decision I’ve ever made.
It made me who I am today and It made me strong enough to endure the world knowing my sisters are behind me. It made me a better person, but better an amazing women. I live up to the standards my sisters set for me, and you can bet your bottom dollar, those standards are worse than anything you can set for me.
I live and breathe by the crescent moon and I always will <3